Heart to heart, we are all connected. I’ve spent the last week traveling through Italy, with the most incredible group of humans (including my mama), from all over the world. My heart feels like it may burst from all the joy and laughter. A true sign of any amazing experience. I never imagined having such a beautiful community around me, in a country that feels like home.
I am keenly aware that we’re all connected in one way or another. In a time of great divsion, having this experience is life affirming. For me, I’ve always been a seeker, eager to learn from others, and adventure into the new, as a way to create meaning in a world that honestly, I don’t quite understand at times. Being on this trip, was exactly what I needed, after months of feeling spiritually depleted. Day after day, I found myself surrounded by people who were encouraging, supportive and loving. Creating new meaning. Revealing my authentic self, and in return having people accept and embrace me for who I am. Not the person that I sometimes project out into the world, but the real, wounded, beautiful bits. Connected by few commonalities, yet bonded for life. As our time together progressed, and with each shared hug and conversation, I recognized the value in choosing love above all else.
For much of my life, I have struggled with not feeling apart of, something I know many of us can relate to. I can’t pinpoint when or how this feeling of being less than or different from my peers began, but it has been a prominent theme, especially in my teens and late 20’s. As I’ve matured, that need to fit in has lessened to a degree, but that’s not to say, I don’t have moments of insecurity or comparing myself to others. The key has been, to acknowledge my habits, especially the negative ones, by focusing on the language I use, which only helps to perpetuate a certain belief. I’ve also found value in the willingness to try something new and uncomfortable, all of which lead to tremendous growth. In doing so, I have had the opportunity to connect with others based on shared experiences, while fine-tuning how I aspire to show up for both myself and others.
As I prepare to return from a week of bliss, surrounded by spirited and like-minded individuals, all on a quest for self-improvement, I can feel a shift; one that is healing in nature. I am no longer the person I was 10 days ago, having shed some tension and resentment. I am deeply aware of what needs to be done, ready to let go and focus on areas of my life that need further introspection; relationships that need mending. Elements of fear, that I have gripped onto for far too long, lessening with each breath.
My final day in Tuscany, was spent sitting in a circle, side by side with my beautiful tribe. An incredible sunset lighting the way for growth and new beginnings. Renewed in mind, body and spirit. I am grateful for the courage to step out of my comfort zone, fully open to the gifts of the unknown. I encourage everyone to say yes. Yes to that new job opportunity, to that person who has asked you out. Yes to time away, for adventure. Yes to the unexpected. For it is in these moments when something changes within, leading to extraordinary purpose and strength of spirit.